trailmix

Sorry about your rent going up, that is always bad news.

What you said above, that's the really wicked side isn't it. If he wasn't an alcoholic, you might have discussed how your relationship was breaking down, over a period of months and he might be able to speak about it in some kind of civil fashion.

You can see him, he can call on the phone and talk "normally" for a few hours, but part of him, really most of him has been taken by alcohol. Literally taken. There's nothing normal about that, it's not something you have in relationships, generally, it's weird and it's hard to wrap your head around and it's frustrating and anger making.

Time will heal this, you are maybe in a type of holding pattern. You can move yourself forward in small steps. You will be ok.