February?
I've promised to post more frequently for years. Mainly because it's like journaling
with feedback. I missed the mark...which is to say; it's a sin.
But that is the least of my worries. I do endeavor to bring the joys of my
life here. Unfortunately it's time. I'm 58 years old and have experienced
a varied life, with some happy accomplishments and some painful
lessons. and now somethings up.
I grow weak and weary, physically and mentally. This,in turn, has
gotten me off my din, my path, spiritually. So I have been distraught
about my physical being, I am fatigued and growing weaker. I was hoping it
was "just" depression, but my body is failing me, I don't know to what extent
this interacts with my mental health, but I am going crazy, literally.
I realize the irony of that statement,(catch-22; crazy people don't know their crazy)
But my head is a jungle and sometimes I feel I've not been in here before..........
........I digress, no, I get distracted, off tract, easily. I also tend to get overly involved
or lost in thought as they say. Two lines ago I was going to use the word "schema",
then checked to make sure it meant what I thought and found myself reading a couple
research journal articles. And so it goes.....
Now as I attempt to finish this post, I find the motivation and desire have left.
I really want to just close now, but am mentally struggling not to. It's kinda like the
sense of procrastination. Story of my life. Distractions and procrastination.
Mind yourself, nobody else can. Listen to your heart, so long as it is pure
and happiness in days will be yours,
Regards,
Larry