Good for you! You definitely have to put your health first. Before I left my XAH I experienced severe bouts of vertigo. Some of the episodes would keep me down for three days at a time. It was awful. Once I made up my mind and took steps for my own self care I just kept marching forward and it got easier every time I had to deal with the XAH. You can do this, just keep putting yourself first. One foot in front of the other, and remember one day at a time. And probably most important is to go easy on yourself. Hugs to you!