Hi SC,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
I care about you, because I am in your boat too. Ex relapsed after 4 yrs, he turned back into the monster and it hurts. More than words can say. But I have recovery in Al Anon...I cannot live without the help, hope and love I get from the fellowship.
Please try to go...your city might have alateen, for the kids....they are extremely affected too....even if you dont see it, they are.
Try al anon online meetings, therye out there,,and keep coming here to talk and ask questions. You are not alone....and never have to be!
Hugs.......
Christina