I have the Rational Recovery book.
Having some AV now, and thinking of borrowing money for "cigarettes" to buy vodka. This is supposed to be day 1 of my new life, it's very disappointing to have these thoughts.
Just trying to dismiss this as AV and ignore it.
It probably doesn't help that yesterday's drinking went so well. I drank the naggin (200ml) on the way home and nobody smelled the alcohol on me.