Hi Jtaudio - it's so good to have you with us.
I can sympathize with what you're going through. My son's a man now, but was born 7 wks. early too. He had respiratory distress syndrome - very scary. I'm glad your little girl is doing well - congratulations.
Congrats also on your 15+ months of sobriety. I'm glad you wanted to talk about your temptation. I think it helps to acknowledge it & share your thoughts.
Be proud of yourself for rejecting the idea of drinking. It leads to nothing but misery & disappointment in ourselves. You're doing great.