FF- We all hear you and that you are suffering. I am sorry you are suffering. There are tools and resources available to you to guide you in the right direction. Tools and resources to stop the voices or to at least help them to be quieter, minimal, etc. It has been encouraged many many many times for you to speak with your doctor about these voices. They have nothing good to say and they are doing you more harm than good. Have you spoken with your doctor about the voices yet? Why would you not tell them if you haven't already told them?
No, I would not drink If my days were numbered. I would spend my numbered days talking to my loved ones, seeing things I have not seen, absorbing information, spreading joy and love, smelling the flowers......etc.