I remember early on telling my sponsor I think I can stay sober but... if I end up in a nursing home I can't just sit there and do sing a longs, I think I may just drink my days out once I'm 80 or so. I can't remember exactly but I think he said something like we can worry about that when you are 80, let's just get through today.
I wrestle with that what will I do when I'm old thing to be honest. Even though I think I got off to a great start in recovery my thinking was screw it I will probably drink when I'm old. As my recovery grows the case for living out my days sober gets stronger. I know I could just drink my days out but I begin to ask the question why? Why do I have to drink just because I think I will die soon. There is much just to observe and appreciate in life. If I get to be 80 I will worry about it then. I don't need to drink right now.
What if someone isn't trying to murder you? What if you don't die? Mine as well stay sober. Drinking can and will put you in a worse spot.