California123: I don't really have many memories of him being kind or us doing things together or him being supportive. It got worse month by month. It felt truly like something when someone gets attached to their kidnapper. I forgot what that is called.... I am not thinking of good times with him....I am mainly worried about my own mental state right now. My own confusion... I feel like I am walking around and having panic moments and moments where I feel out of my body and can't concentrate... I am thinking as I come out of the fog and the moments of abuse come to surface it is making me feel shaky inside ... I feel like I usually am or was before this decently emotionally sound.... I am just hoping with time this goes away.