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You AMAZE me!! I'm serious, you have accomplished SO much - and with little to no support!?!? You have done one fantastic job! *I* am proud of you!
Going to AA is a goooood suggestion, lots of support and possibly help in finding a more immediate housing solution. Miracles happen in those mtgs, I've seen them + been a part of them.
I'm wondering if maybe Al-anon or ACOA would help you deal with your mom??
You're doing good by not verbally buying into your mom's "stuff"!
Can you practise "not hearing" it as well as not responding to it??
Is it possible to say "Ok Mom" and walk away? Leave the room, leave the house??
No matter WHAT you've done in the past, YOU DO NOT DESERVE TO BE ABUSED.
Is it possible to 'camp out' for a while with a friend, co-worker??
Check with the local Women's Shelter. SERIOUSLY. Being abused and battered emotionally is every bit as serious as the physical kind.
Now, go look in the mirror and say: "I AM proud of myself! I have worked hard and I DESERVE GOOD things!"
(repeat until you BELIEVE it!)
Take care of YOU!
Bright Blessings,
Blue