what I said You can ask for whatever you think you need, but you've done this 'please don't post to me' thing before, and you kept drinking.
is not what you think I said 
You say in a slightly accusatory way: "you did X but you keep drinking".
I've *seen* you push people away before and keep drinking after that.
Observation. not accusation.
You didn't tell me what your plan to do to avoid drinking again is.
I would have liked to know whether you feel your new mindset means you wont drink again, or whether you'll just drink less in volume/frequency or both.
I think Ob was getting at the same thing.
I think that would have been a worthwhile discussion.
Commitment is a biatch.
I had great trouble committing to anything when I was trying to quit drinking.
You remind me a lot of me.
I daresay others here feel the same.
What you see as hounding might be people who care enough to keep trying to help you avoid the mistakes they have made, and keep offering that help even tho, lets face it, you often treat them pretty badly..
Folks like Ob and Scott have stuck with you for a long long time, and have the bruises to prove it.
I think pushing folks like that away is classic alcoholic self sabotage....but...if pure fellowship is what you want from SR, then you got it.
You can always let us know if or when you change yr mind.
Have a good weekend
D