Hi Janine:
Welcome to the forum!
I understand the uncertainty you must be feeling right now. You are not alone.
this link shows several real people going through real recovery and their comments each day for the first few weeks:
https://www.verywellmind.com/is-this...-it-last-80197
It really helped (still helps) me to read this regularly. (you can skim the first 3/4 of a page, the testimonials are where it’s at.)
So glad you’re here.
Keep posting.