Hi All,
Thanks for the responses. All your replies hold valuable input for me, and the theme really is: yes, all that happened, it hurt, it was confusing, I did the best I can and so what now? This may be an oversimplification, of what was said, but sometimes simplifying for me is what I need. I tend to get too caught up into the web of it all and usually things get even more confusing. So thank you, thank you, thank you.
I believe I suffer from a lack of confidence and perhaps a bit more. confidence, clarity, etc...
I have been doing Al-anon by Zoom and they are great to attend, because I am reminded how I am not alone in this and it is the same with this group, only here, I get specific feedback in addition to benefitting from your recovery.
Hugs.