Briansy,
I would say exactly what Gottalife said.
Its like being deathly allergic to peanuts and deciding to give on a try to see if maybe I am no longer allergic to peanuts. Only a crazy (or suicidal) person would do that right, but we do it all the darn time.
I had the same more often that I can count, all of a sudden I was drinking and it was like it had happened spontaneously -- again, sounds nuts, but it did not feel like a choice.
BUT, I am sure it will never happen again because I now fully know and accept that I am allergic to peanuts so I will never eat peanuts again.
So friend -- peanuts or not?? I vote not, the rest really is execution but you need to take the peanuts totally and completely off the table.