Hello Elly - i'm glad you are here and sharing now, vs the alternative. Yes, it's disappointing when this happens but it does happen. The best thing you can do is learn from this and change up your plan to make sure it doesn't happen again. See if you can look back and notice any patterns or decisions that might have led up to your decision to drink today - the choice is usually made well before the action happens. You do indeed have a lot of good things in your life to keep striving for, and I'm glad you see sobriety as an important part of all that.