I've done same Elly. Many of us have, and we learn from it, so not totally wasted.
I've relapsed many times Elly and it took me this type of learning to finally understand that I could not tolerate alcohol in any amount. Any state of mind.
Funny how we think it'll be ok to just have a couple in celebration. In sadness. And then tomorrow comes, and I'm devastated. Start building those days again, Elly. A great and useful lesson has been learned. Use to to your advantage. Your recovery.
I'm 17 months sober Elly, not long in the scheme of things, but 17 months I would not swap for anything. It is so much better.
It'll be ok Elly. It's the thinking behind the drinking, not so much the Time. Proud of my 17 months though.
Good thing you nipped it in the bud.