Forgive yourself but don't forget. This is what drinking really is. The ease and comfort of those first few drinks is such a small portion of the whole experience. The real experience of A drink includes horror of what we may do when drunk. It becomes a much greater factor then any ease and comfort. Then we get its real physical effect hours after drinking. The anxiety, the sleeplessness, the depression, etc.
The deeper this conviction that we can not have alcohol the better our odds of long term sobriety.