Doubt is normal in the early days dustyfox. In fact think it a good and necessary thing because has me examine things more closely. Compare what was, with what might be. What I really wanted.
I don't use AVRT either. I think AVRT is just me trying to minimise what alcohol really did to me, and opens the grimy door to giving it another go. Escape myself, and what I truly needed to do. It's the painful bit, and reason we allow doubt to enter. Facing the consequences. Growing.
I try to look honestly, not romantically now at how alcohol effected me and those I cared about. Each time I do this doubt begins to dissolve, and I know with greater certainty that I do not want to drink. Knew I had to go through the pain of growth.
Of this there is no doubt. And it is so much better.