Originally Posted by
dustyfox 
I do want to quit completely biminiblue it's just that in the past - the last 30 years - I have stopped many times - pledging never again - and failed. I suppose I cant face disappointing myself again - in my mind I have quit for good - but I fear, I suppose, failure.
I drank for 30 years and by the end, I could barely make it 3 days without a drink.
I had no idea if permanent sobriety was possible for me but I was willing to give it a try.
With the help and support of this place and others I’m now 14 years sober.
Our past need not dictate our future, yeah?
However disappointed we might be by drinking again, we’d be exponentially more disappointed in ourselves if we gave up completely and never tried to quit at all.
Our addicted self will fight for its survival and confuse, bluster, and rationalise its corrupted version of the Truth. It will try to blind us with BS and tie us up in knots to stop change happening.
Don’t let it DF
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