I don’t know where to start, WaterOx!
My life now bears no resemblance to the pre-2018 me. Since I quit drinking, so many things have just fallen into place. Yes, I get cravings at times, but once you stay quit, there’s too much to lose. I hope you find an activity to replace the drinking - that’s the key. I mean, where do you go or what do you do when this craving hits? Maybe a sport or a class would take your mind off the craving.