My addiction lingers. Even after several years of sobriety, the thought of making the world go away for a while still tempts me.
But, SR taught me. Your post and others remind me.
I've be on SR since I was 90 days clean back in 2015.
I have read thousands of posts.....I have never never never read a post that said a person found happiness and contentment in relapsing.
The happiness is found in staying sober forever.
Wanting to drink booze is a feeling that resides deep in my mind. It is linked to emotion at a foundation level. It is simple but persistent.
I find that the seemingly strong sober minds here fundamentally dismiss the thought of drinking as something totally and inexcusably wrong.
Drinking booze is just wrong for us. There is no need to rationalize. No glamour. No benefit. Nothing.
Drinking booze is marketed as a way to enjoy or be rewarded. But, ingesting something that makes me sick and alters my personality is not a reward.
Thanks.