Originally Posted by
Givenup2018 
So sorry Flower959 for your pain but only you can answer the question, 'why are you still here.' It is called hope, hope that he will see the light, hope that he will make a decision to give up drinking, hope that your absense will make a difference to him, hope that if he really loved you, he would see the damage. I am sorry to say but this type of hope will not help you. We stay because we are bogged in the mire of 'hopium.'
Yes, it is hope every so often! Just enough to keep me here.
Sometimes I often think that I need to either stop complaining or actually leave this marriage. Put up or shut up, I guess. Y'all have got to be sick of the complaining yet not taking action. That goes through my mind quite often when I post on here or when I start talking about it to my sister or mom.