Alcohol turned me into someone that didn't really care about anything but alcohol. Before going down this road I had so many interests and passions. They cannot coexist with the drinking version of me.
Things could have been much worse though. I almost lost my job because of stupid drunken behaviour and looking back I do not understand how I still have a wife.
I don't yet know how to relate to these things in my past. They disgust me now but they happened and they are part of my story. Regret doesn't quite seem the right word......I don't know......