THXS AARON. WOW, R U SURE YOUR NOT A FLY ON THE WALL? i BELIEVE REHAB IS THE ANSWER FOR ME. IT GIVES ME HOPE TO KNOW THAT IF I CAN'T GET INTO REHAB TODAY THERE ARE OTHER OPTIONS. I HAVE BEEN TO 1 NA MEETING IN WHICH I CRIED THROUGH THE WHOLE THING, I LITERALLY COULD NOT SPEAK. I JUST LISTENED. I DON'T HAVE THE COURAGE TO GO ON MY OWN ISN'T THAT A SHAME? I WORK IN HEALTHCARE AND INSTRUCT PATIENTS EVERY DAY ON WHAT THEY NEED TO DO TO IMPROVE THEIR PHYSICAL HEALTH AND HERE I AM. IS THIS REALLY MY LIFE? YOUR ADVICE IS VERY VALUABLE, I NEED COURAGE TO GO TO A MEETING MYSELF CAUSE MY CRACK FRIENDS R NOT READY. I DON'T EVEN LIKE THEM PEOPLE. IF IT WASN'T FOR DRUGS I WOULD NEVER CONSIDER HANGIN' WITH THEM PEOPLE. I HAVE LOWERED MY STANDARDS CONSIDERABLLY. I NEED TO WORRY ABOUT LAURIE.