I am glad you have your answer. That was your gut feeling, which you did pay attention to ultimately and that's a good thing for you.
I'm very sorry you got hurt in all of this. That's going to hurt for a while but I'm also glad you are thinking of therapy as well, you need all the support you can get.
Yes, as SK said, you can absolutely keep coming back, lots of support for you here, the drug of choice is not important.