Originally Posted by BeABetterMan

I would say that I am a very smart person. I am an engineer and I know "stuff" and can solve problems. So if I'm so smart why was it such a surprise to me that a natural byproduct of sobriety is that I would actually have to feel feelings? That I would have to endure them. And live through them and come out the other side of them. Holy ****, AWFUL! I NEED MY MEDICINE! Any miniscule disruption to my mental state required immediate numbing. Seriously, I could not tolerate any feelings. Even happiness drove me to drink.

You are not alone. Experiencing life and all of the feelings that come with it was so foreign to me. Mind bending. But I mean...maybe we can learn to live with our feelings. Other people do it. And feelings aren't always fact right? So maybe we make too much out of them? Maybe we can learn that it's ok to feel them? I think we can. Let's give ourselves the chance.