Thanks for all your posts, everyone.
I know drinking sanitizer is pretty crazy. I don't plan on doing it again.
My next psych appt is July but I'm going to ring them Monday to see if they can fit me in earlier.
My left hand is incredibly sore. I think I might have dipped in in hot water when I was blacked out. Needed to self harm I guess. Not the best coping mechanism.
I got a good night's sleep. Going to relax and chill today, meditate, pray, post on SR. Looking forward to a run on Monday.
I genuinely don't ever want to drink again. I think I've gotten closure as far as alcohol is concerned. It has no place in my life.