Hi FF, I am glad you are here and posting, but worried about you based on what you posted. Drinking hand sanitizer again is definitely concerning, it is so dangerous for you. I’m also worried about the suicidal thoughts you’re having. Have you been seeing a counselor since you have been back home again? Is it possible to go back to an inpatient facility to help you with both the alcohol and the suicidal thoughts. You had some good strategies listed today to help you stay sober, I just think you need a little more support right now.
Sending lots of love.
❤️Delilah