I really hope your plan works out for you. Drinking hand sanitizer must do incredible harm to your organs. Drinking that stuff just so you can get to a store to buy beer sounds pretty bad. How you can go for a run after drinking that just bogles my mind. Your tolerance level must be pretty high. The alcohol level in your system must be pretty high and that is not good. If I did that, I'd be laid up for at least a day. Not sure if you are aware of what you are doing to yourself. Don't know why you won't consider in patient rehab. At least while you are there, you can deal with the many issues you are dealing with. Good luck. John