Thank you all for your replies. I’m going to get through this day with zero alcohol. Plan is to not go anywhere and my husband will hold me accountable. I will go for a long walk this morning during my usual purchasing time, then hope to take a good nap this afternoon. My body is so tired. It’s taken me 9 months to get this unhealthy, so I will be patient and begin the healing journey today.
I have tried AA zoom meetings and I should do that again. I was in a face to face recovery group last year and that was working. But a few weeks after we went online I began drinking again. Anyway, no more excuses there. I’ve got to use whatever is available right now.