Gosh, I can relate to all of you. I love being online, I feel the safest, but I even struggle sometimes with trying to fit in here too...
People used to come up to me in high school while walking down the halls and ask me why I looked so mean. One day my husband saw me driving on the road and asked me why I looked so evil. Like MG said, my normal facial expression is a grumpy one.
I have to force myself to have a neutral expression, but I don't even think I know what one is!
I don't do well with strangers or big crowds. I'm fine once I get to know you, but I don't mingle well at parties and I tend to just stick with people I already know. I've known my closest friends for 10 years and more, b/c it's hard for me to connect to people and I haven't made a close friend that wasn't introduced to me by a mutual acquaintance since 1993. Pretty sad when you stop to think about it....
(((((((Clowie))))))
I'm sorry you're struggling so much but keep remembering you're not alone - I would hang out with you if I could!
