I'm sorry for your loss
@WhyNotNowMe. There's not much to say that will help, I realize. My dad died about ten years ago and I think of him every day. At first it's overwhelming, and there's guilt over what was left unsaid and undone. But there's nothing you can do about the past. I'm sure he knew you loved him. Sadly many folks have died alone due to Covid, and I really hate it. As corny as it sounds, try to live your life in a way that honors him. Get sober, stay sober, live a life that would make him proud. Not just for him, but for you, too.
