If there was one benefit from having a lot of false starts over the years was I did learn a few things about the recovery process over time and what having PAWS is like. Just took me a long time to finally hit a point where enough was enough.
But even at 10 months I would of thought everything would be “normal” and life would just go on. But I still find myself dealing with a lot of unwanted emotional baggage with month 9 being the absolute worse anxiety/panic episodes I’ve had in my entire life. So bad at points where I knew a quick 5min drive to the store would have me feeling better. But then the sickly thought of having to start all over again would snap me back into reality, I don’t ever want to go through this s**t again!