Hi TSN. 10 months is amazing. At 41 and drinking through those formative teen years, you likely never really learned to identify feelings and the temporary nature of them. If you feel a bit unsettled or as you put it - "sick" - it is probably just one of life's moods that hits everyone. People like us always drank through all of our normal feelings - ironically leading to even more awful horrid feelings - and so we need to learn now what they are. Anger. Resentment. Jealousy. Loneliness. Grief. And so many others. It is good you recognize it as related to alcohol and sobriety. Our AV's are always at work I think. But everyone who walks the earth deals with those very same feelings. Sober we can learn for the first time to deal with them in a healthy way.