Cry and scream and rage at the sky Va2Mi87. I actually think that would be really really good for you. Catharsis is change. I read something the other day that I loved. I'll butcher it, but the sentiment was Q: Why do you laugh so much and cry so much? A: Because I'm paying attention.
Stay sober my friend. There's nothing for you there in the bottom of that damn bottle. It's a lie. It wants to kill you.
One week is amazing by the way. I'm so so proud of you.