We don't disapprove Owen. We all get it and we are full of empathy and sympathy. We get why you are drinking and we understand all of the rationalization that is going on in your noggin.
You know what is going on my friend, and you don't need any lectures or education. You said it best - you are indeed playing with fire and you will get burned.
Keep posting regardless. I truly do not care if you are drinking and you don't need to pass a breathalyzer to hop onto SR. Tons of people on this site drink all the time. I hope you never EVER feel like you cannot come on here and tell us what is going on. But when you do, we're going to call it like we see it. Fair enough?
I hope your week is a good one Owen.