Welcome back Finalcall, stay close and be safe today. You mentioned journaling, that's a good idea I think - it not only gives you a record but helps create self-awareness in the process of writing. You've actually done some journaling already via your posts here in the past, don't be afraid to go back and take a look. I still go back and look at my "day 1" post from time to time to ground me and help me remember why I'm here.