Hey there railtek,
ive been working hard on and off to be sober for a few years now... Currently 33.
Every effort and all the time I have tried to be sober has been worth it. I have learnt something every time I spent time not drinking. It always is worth it. I am back where u are now because I thought I could have a couple here or there. For me it is not the case.
The first few days are rough. Let's get through them, grit our teeth and I hope to hear back from you with a few days under our belts