Hi Dee
yep iam not worried about the lockdown, just where i am at in life i guess.
Its a strange mix. I know iam drowning myself but i cant seem to muster anything to stop drowning myself, its like i want to push the limits.
My drinking patterns are very similar that of my grandfathers, and father, they were(are) very serious functional alcoholics. 3 -4 for normal days then a few days of extreme binges. Over and over again through out their lives.
This is the first time ive gone this long drinking everyday to the point iam not hungover anymore.