Originally Posted by
BeABetterMan 
Wait, there’s water and dirt in this bucket?!! Looks and smells like something else!!
Thanks Nez ❤️
Actually, you sat that "water" down for 5'ish or so months. Sit it down again and continue walking forward. Seek help,reach out, pray, meditation or whatever you're into....just don't pick that "water" up again no matter what.