Still sober and I intend to stay that way
Repeat this over and over again like a mantra. Say it to the man in the mirror and look him in the eye when you do. Say it with conviction, because I know you have that in spades.
I called and spoke to about 10 alcoholics today though. Kind of helped, kind of didn’t.
Kind of helped is a good start and way better than no help. It is a sign of moving forward and progress. Even with baby steps, you can complete a marathon if you take enough of them.
I remember the first days of sobriety all too well because I have so many of them. I remember feeling like muddy water left to stand in a glass. The good news is little by little, the sediment sinks to the bottom and the water becomes pure. Time takes time. Trust the process.