Still sober and I intend to stay that way but I feel so alone and so lost. That serenity and hope I had attained seems to be be completely lost. Everyone know I’m reading all of your posts. But I am in survival mode. I have very little to give. I’m so scared and feeling alone. I believe in God, I’ve been searching for him. If he knows where I am, why won’t he come and get me. I’ve been carrying a lot of water for a long time. I don’t know how to get help. I will get through tonight and hope for better tomorrow.
I called and spoke to about 10 alcoholics today though. Kind of helped, kind of didn’t.
Wishing you all the best. We all need each other at different times. I’ll need you all more soon.