Hello....
Alcoholism is a disease. I suggest you get more factual info
My favorite 'handbook' is "Under The Influence"
and it has a sequel..."Beyond The Influence"
Both can be ordered from Amazon...less than I spent on a nights drinking!
Hipe you find peace...try Akanin fir yourself.
I suggest you go to the Stories forum for oodles of our tales. ...including mine!