hey Stewy
I think fears like that are pretty common with non alcoholics too - but they are particularly common with alcoholics.
Fear was the fuel of my addiction. Fear kept me drinking. I was always leaping ahead, pursued by phantoms.
Drinking was, in many ways, a crazy maladaptive way of trying to control the parameters of my world.
As a sober guy I have to accept I cannot control everything that happens to me - I can prepare for things I can see up ahead, I can have a support network ready ...but there will always be 'ambushes' and surprises.
What recovery has given me is an unshakeable belief that I'll be OK, no matter what - and dependent of course on me staying in recovery.
I've been through a lot in my lfie and I've come through it all - there's no reason to expect that won;t continue.
I trust the same is true for you Stewy.
D