You're the best Chris, you hate yourself as much as I did?
I thought all family, relationships, could never be retrieved, but they have been. The real ones at anyrate.
When people start to see us change, they change too. It takes time, but they do. 'Ava go ya mug.
I hope you continue to post Chris, and if not, "lurk" as Be123 suggests. Every little bit counts.
Have a happy and peaceful christmas Chris.