Originally Posted by
Tess1990 
Thank you all SO much for your input, I know I have to do something, but I’m very scared—of not having the pills to fall back on.
Tess
Fear is what keeps us stuck in the same place. Maybe find a way to turn that fear around. Maybe you can be more scared of turning into a junkie, or losing your life, or simply wasting life away.
Not a single person here will tell you it will be easy. But one thing seems to be true for everyone. Once you first admit the problem to people that care about you, a great weight is lifted. No more hiding in the dark. No more doing it all alone. Getting those pills and taking them and recovering from them and lying about them—that’s a lot of darn work and I bet it’s exhausting. Give yourself a chance. Make a call. The truth will set you free. And the word addict, big damn deal. I’m an alcoholic drunk, pill-popping coke snorter. But I quit doing that crap, for good, 5 months ago. So today, I’m also clean and sober. Join me?