I'm a "searcher" Be123. I think all people grapple with existence some point in their lives. Maybe some don't, but they're probably zombies.
I can recall asking an old bloke, not an alcoholic, "what was the meaning of life", and he said, "we make our own meaning." This satisfied me at the time, but didn't do much about it, just carried on as I was, drinking. Unconscious.
Now in sobriety I am trying to find meaning to my life, by doing the things I never thought possible, or was afraid to attempt. And this includes relationships with others, and more importantly relationship with self. Sobriety has had me think again, something alcohol allowed me to ignore. No turning back now.
I'm not much of a philosopher Be123, but think forming and developing relationship with self is going to be where I find my meaning. I've hardly even kicked off. But that means something, surely?
Steely x