Originally Posted by
Dee74 
Yeah you really do have your work cut out for you, man.
Its so easy to rationalise a positive from a bad decision.
I thought I was there for everyone too no matter how high I was, but I can't tell you the number of folks who've told me since they're so glad to see the real authentic sober me back.
I feel better too - I wasn't giving 100%.
I remember I'd be thinking God, I hope I don't appear as stoned as I feel....you can't give undivided attention with those kinds of sub scripts going on.
D
Yes.... I know. And, I really didn't mean to rationalize the decision as a positive. I guess I was looking for some ammo to stave off shame.
It definitely matches the same old patterns. The writing is definitely on the wall.
I'm not going to try and justify....
Going through the same 'hoops' it seems. In some ways, it makes me wish that cannabis came with greater consequences!!
Here's to a clean and sober Tuesday.
Thanks, D!