Take a look at step 2.
Restore us to sanity. That's because we are insane. We may drink too much and act crazy but thats not the insanity we speak of. The insanity is when we are sober, we know what alcohol does to us yet we want to drink it anyway. That's insanity.
The idea that picking up a drink is a good idea is a delusion. It's not really alcohol we are seeking. Its the ease and comfort, serenity. Alcohol seems such a quick and easy way to feel this ease and comfort. Like with many things the easy way isn't always the best. The net effect of taking a drink is much more trouble, much more additional anxiety then ease and comfort. It could be hours of ease and comfort vs days of anxiety after. Thats if things go well, thats the upside potential of taking a drink. Not very good. How about the downside potential of taking a drink, I hate to think of what could go wrong for me.
A couple of weeks in you may want to look out for a sponsor to take you through the steps. Ive heard the big book compared to a 747 airplane instruction manual. Someone could hand you the manual and you can figure out how to fly. It might go easier with a pilot helping you.
Working the steps you can learn how to find some of that ease and comfort that we so desperately want. Alcohol has polluted our thinking into believing that we have to be restless, irritable, and discontent without it.
You are a couple weeks in, going to meetings and checking in here so you may be off to a really good start. Just lock up today for now. Your about halfway through a month already, it gets easier.