That's a very good point regarding speaking about this in present vs. past tense. Thanks. I totally see what you mean and definitely, what we say and how we say it can have profound effects on motivation and decisions, even if unconsciously. But I can choose my words consciously, as well as the act of not doing anything in the direction of drinking.
Also changed my avatar to reflect all this, because the old one represented too much the many years of ambivalence I had, which is not an option now
